*sigh*

I'm really rethinking the name of this blog. I should have called it Bitchfest. Because that, apparently, is all I do. It annoys me. Thank gosh I only have one person reading this... at least I'm not annoying 50 people a day. :)  

I try to be positive, I do. I look for the silver lining, the bright side of shit.  And honestly, I'm basically pretty happy with my life. I have a nice apartment (that will be even better once I finish unpacking it).  I have a job I love that I am actually really good at. I am a mom to a beautiful, smart, loving, and wonderful child... what is there to be unhappy about???  Its not my life I'm bitter and bitchy about... its the people in it.

The ex who tells me he loves me for the first time, and then tells me he thinks I'm a lying whore.  My mother who hasn't spoken to me in 8 years because I moved out and shit went down.  And the "friend" who helped me get a job and NEVER fails to remind me.  She is snarky and talks down to me, then asks me for favors.  There's the baby daddy's family... ugh, not even gonna go down that road... and to think, my daughter inherited those genes! Not to mention the guys I meet who act all nice, get to know me, and then drop off the face of the earth because... well, I don't know why.

I am constantly being used, abused, and thrown away.  I'm sick of it. I'm mad about it.  This is how I fight back, its all I have.  Deep down inside, I am just an insecure girl who wants everyone to like her. So I don't say no to the favors, and I don't tell people they are hurting me.

To all of you out there, anyone who might accidentally stumble on this... look beyond what you see, the pain isn't always evident at first glance.  Don't be careless with others.  Treat people with respect and dignity, we are all human and we all have feelings...